-NAMI
I'm crazy
you know this
but
I'd ask you one thing
if there's anything
you
need/want
to
say:be cool
to
be cool
together without breathing
together without breathing
tonight
without
breathing.
-I am :6
-Lego
:Building
blocks,
-kittens, and
soapstone
are the
three
most
important :aspects
of a good :environment
:Nine, emotional gangsterism #1
Honk the
horn
for
mommy. wake up the neighbors
mommy honks the horn right
back.
;Eleven
:Alligators
attacks
electricity and alligators
dancing
feet
in
mud.
vernacular and pie-holes.
:Daddy's turn
Gymnastics at 4-7, 9∎ or 5'5∎
home-gym kettlebells
starting at 9-12, jumping, agility, speed.
ball drills at 7-12.
. . I was the tallest individual
in my middle school until a 6'8
principal transferred in.
- discourage basketball
(I couldn't dunk until I turned twenty-one)
**Tennis
**Skiing
Fire :Arrow
If you're shooting at
the sun
for twenty hours starlight
before the water temple,
daddy's coming to break the game with you.
That's a D1 athlete
I'd rather have a 3.6 with
than a 4.0 with
:attendance
Bitty
BB
I've got a question
without
and
:together
without
care
without
gorging—the lioness
mother's wisdom—
attention to detail,
I am a
I am a taurus—seven stars
Powdered sugar
Fastest
bird
fastest
a whole
box of mini-wheats
on the train tracks.
:pay the piper
900 dollars
on steel.
S -Tier
Sour skittles,
marionberry crisp,
lemon-meringue
key lime
fairy dust,
captain crunch, chips ahoy
elven lembas bread
and strawberry jam
(frozen pls) Lola doesn't like it soft, it gets all over her face
Lola likes animal crossing more than Zelda,
she and daddy
disagree. . . .
-Tee-ball treats
-Seeds–
-ranch, :dill, nacho cheese
major league chew–
grape, -sour :apple, strawberry
hi-chew–50% mango, 33%
strawberry, 27% -kiwi
:Forget forever
Together
without one day
one night tonight.
I don't believe me.
;8 years old
I'm :sure that
Einstein forgot something
in his
:eyebrows
rock lobster tonight
tonight we dine
in hell
I am -ten
Leaving the
bedroom
door
open
isn't
ok
without
magic
fairy
dust
without
what.
52% or controlling interest—3m
:10th grade math—sixth grade vibes
Stanford—Volleyball
MIT
Harvard
Stanford
The :orbital blanching
Two electrons
are in a state
between
life
:Witchy woman
:Cry to me
rather than
imply
what
you
:Bird ;brained activities
-Blowing stuff up
(-Pennsylvania is pretty cool)
night :vision :Batmobile, seats :8
(no cliffs)
Cats
We’re not ;like
:the other, we
-don’t -just
go with the -pack
curiosity
starts at
who you are
My first word
-My
first
word. it was
fire.
there was a hot oven
I mean brunette—
I mean hot—
-Do we have a wildcat
no,
we do not.
drone-free zone.
Monkeys are not allowed
That’s. . .
that’s pretty
much
the
extent of the rulebook
-Dad’s hands
:They’re like his brother’s. -rough. soft.
lots of weight. no :cigarettes (at home)
they haven’t got
love without
hers.
-To your own drum
:If
:you march
to the :beat :of
your
own :drum, you’re probably
a :classical singer.
MAHA
a hat I’d wear.
and I want our holy heifer
to have a couple boyfriends
that get sick every other year
Horsey medicine (therapist)
Maybe twice—
once for therapy,
and once
more to show our wrestlers a thing or two.
24 pull-ups at
265.
:Easter -eggs
Mommy
doesn’t need to give candy money
300 golden dollars/capita/year
no :digging
:necessary. unless it’s January.
also :Jesus can
annoy
zer friends
with a fake 25k follower insta
given with love.
Shark with frickin’ laser beams
When I smell blood—
eating from the top
of a smaller
chain.
fric-
kin’
las-
er
b
e
a
m
s.
-Family :planning
The first one
of y’all that wants to be called
by a different pronoun
gets Eeyore hung from thine
bedroom doorframe. . in your own macramé
DISNEY - TOP SECRET
1. HERCULES
2. MOANA
3. THE LITTLE MERMAID
4. BRAVE
5. JAMES & THE GIANT P.
6. JUNGLE BOOK
7. LILO & STITCH
8. ALADIN
9. LION KING
10. ROBIN HOOD
11. MULAN
12. BEAUTY & THE BEAST
13. RAYA
14.
-No :facetune
If you feel bad
about yourself,
we need to talk
about what we
can do. .
Questions ;unanswered:
-1. why is there a baseball diamond in your backyard?
Monkey bars and guerilla hot lava
If mommy doesn’t mind. . . .
down the halls—kitchen to the bedrooms
unless it’s up the stairs too, then it’s two
at a time or jumping.
tag, no bumper cars.
Your favorite color is :purple
I just :vomited
all I've had today is
:vodka, milk, :hamburger :helper, and :daddy
let me have some :pre-workout
we're all :screwed
ly, mommy. bye-bye
-Kisses on the cheek
-Ew, they’re gross. :kisses are for girls.
not according to daddy. otherwise
:pull-ups are too -then. . or else
Orange lemon head
Type-I sweetness
I know you hate it
I hate you too, now
so don’t ever call me
a meany tengu hi-chew
Kiddo’s kiddos
-Three is -the
magic:
number. . .
Wifey
-Please tell me
that
therapy
is for ;sick children.
My magpie
Waking up
to the sound
of little
birdies
and wondering,
so much wond'ring.
you can hardly ask
them anything,
but when you do,
"what game
do you want
to play?"
"yes," is the final answer.
unless they haven't
had breakfast,
and then it's
always
time to eat
Freyr’s toast.
but if Mommy
wants to make
something better than
Daddy can—
Daddy's hungry too,
but he never eats breakfast
unless Mommy makes him.
Daddy's getting fat.
he can balance
me on one arm.
yesterday I did
a backflip
from his shoulder.
"my little parakeet", Daddy calls me.
I told him I
wanted a parrot
and he said,
"we already have a
few too many bird-brains
in this house."
Daddy said maybe
someday
I'll be something else. "what else?"
daddy says it's
a secret. I want him
to tell me,
but then he'll have to
eat me.
"don't eat me!"
he tries to catch me
running around,
"I would eat you right now. get your bottom
to the weight room,
you're too skinny."
we practice my
handstand on
the barbell
while he
lifts me
until
Mommy
comes in
and takes
us through
her "Serve
Circuit"
while the
marionberry crisp gets ready
in the oven.
daddy called her a bad girl
earlier today.
I'm always a good, good girl.
I cry when he
calls me a bad girl. "Mommy cried
happy tears, sweetheart.
don't worry.
crisp is done!"
we're all cooked from our workout.
"go tell the twins to come down."
I want to
be a mommy.
they spill down the stairs
like squished
tubes of go-gurt.
giant numb-
skulls.
we all eat
marionberry
crisp
and drink
protein
shakes,
and I say
a little
prayer
to myself,
"dear lord, please
give Mommy
more money so can I have a Mercedes-Benz."
Mother shit-goose
I saw a six foot squirrel today
she
was on all fours with hands type of thing
I broke
her finger to tell her
that she’s loved.
Mother’s .357
Pre-school teacher
Russian interpreter
summit director
dance instructor
assistant athletic director
administrative co-coordinator/back-office accountant
Iyengar yoga trainee/front-facing development officer
Chief Transformation and Informations Executive
Burden of faith
I asked
GOD today
the same
thing that
I asked you,
the difference is
that he knows.
I carry the same weight on
my weakened shoulders.
a goose called just now, I wonder if it’s him
his trumpet shook the ground
for three years marching,
marching.
I was a watcher for a
second—I asked him for too much. I asked for
and I saw your name.
I told you today
that I bled myself to write the truth
and wonder
if you’re in love with me.
and if I made you so mad
you’re mad
I’m mad
that I couldn’t
take more
Last year’s edifice
You called me on the telephone. . .
“don’t talk over me!”
you slammed the phone down.
and I stammered
a little bit
and called you back. “I’m sorry, I had to.”
I’m frightened
You didn’t write back
you didn’t even make your website
and if I get what I want
if I make it to you,
do you count on your music?
I have nothing to offer now it seems
so your every word
will be poetry. .
I have nothing left to give today
I’m reading something
five ways down.
I’d like to go drink to deal with the pain I’m in
getting nothing I want from you.
so I can write something trying to be beautiful. . .
(August 2024)
A Soul Mate
I have you placed
in a world in my heart that
does not live in my chest.
you will never know the life well
until,
it is time
to be
together
forever,
and a day,
A little tree
A hummingbird just came
to my little tree
for no reason
I hear her in my ear
where I hear music
and I lay on my bed
listening to
its wings calling you
with a beat faster than I can count
I just walked past my first crush
I’m drinking now, like a bored father.
I fought for her
I won a tournament. . .
I wonder if you care about the story
I want
to care about yours
but I’m only drinking five tonight.
I wonder why you won’t
share any.
well guess what.
mine feel so unimportant
that I can’t even write them
you make them feel so unimportant for not sharing yours.
Angry espousing
I just raged
in the street
(practically), but I might’ve been on the phone
and I could put it on hold, all of it, my whole life, but not a thing’s moving
for me, anyway.
I thought to myself, what can I give you right now, anyway? maybe a back massage. maybe I’d still do everything I said I was going to do, and I’d try to
put a finger in your butt.
would you hate me for it? please do. I’m doing to best I can do without giving
you my
words that would effect you positively
“I love you”—it hurt again yesterday. I must be a pussy, but I love you too.
Candelabra speaking
w. a. n. t. y. o. u. m. o. r. e .
So, telling someone you’re sorry is submissive?
just
just l. o. v. e. m. e.
say you’re sorry more than I do
don’t
don’t
you w. i. s. h.
want to know what
I know
about
doing U.
something
wrong
in hell? &.
how wrong?
not
that U. S.
much wrong,
it’s
the
little
things.
I called you Beauty
I haven’t rested a day since,
I lay in bed, caressing,
dressing
someone
in myself
to meet you. whispering,
and I cried all
night. despise, despite,
I hate that. I hate the word. I don’t cry
Don’t turn your back without saying, “i’m right here.”
There wasn’t ever another way
around the world without your wings by mine
there won’t be another
there was never a bird so free,
and me, i’m less without my birdy’s wings
by mine
I’m less without them,
and in a cloud i can feel you
in front of me,
and i can feel the ocean, and see the sand glistening
and we can loopty
loop, and find a place in a banyan tree
so stay by me, stay by me
Sashay
Are you a cat? I am also a cat.
who thought he took those bunny ears clean off
and ate them up all those
I just wanted to be your
and it was hard to tell
it was hard
for us
and
hard
to tell
that I was
so afraid
you actually
hissed at me once
didn’t you? I dare you to do it again
Monitor lizard (needs warming blanket)
I missed a beat
were you wondering about voodoo
I know that if you play
online poker
for at least
60 hours straight
you can take care of a baby with a bad cough
and maybe win
enough to pay
for diapers.
A cat’s simper
Don’t hate me when I love you
if you needed to ignore everything else
ignore the fall-guy’s wurst-wishes
if you don’t cuddle with me every single day of the week
during the day
at least once a week
then I will be forced to
take a dive,
you know what I’m saying
I haven’t even watched the Sopranos
She knows what I’m saying. I was on mushrooms
the only time I watched The Godfather.
She’ll hurt you.
I met John outside
Bought two cigarettes for $1.51
passed a girl dressed bollywood
a big “S” hung around her neck
just so I’d see you in my mind again
smoking on my yellow American Spirits
and all the things I have to tell you
I drank two tall boys
Two white claw surges, extra discipline
and
three
masala
spicy soy
chicken thighs.
do you want some?
The scale of love
Ten, we would
elope
without our pre-frontal cortexes
9, I am willing to tell you
I would never be same without you
eight,
If I can’t make love to you,
seven,
let’s get a kitten
6, let’s get a kitten
five,
we need my baby
four,
without you
I’m
not
myself
3,
I’m still getting
our kitten.
2,
I’m never
talking
to anyone
but Juniper
ever again.
Questioning me. .
I said no ice-cream in the house. for my sake
I did not say that infants don’t need daily baths
there is heavy whipping cream,
peanut butter
protein
and chocolate chips, raspberries, marionberries etc., ad infinitum
(open to conversation about how to make one of our boys fat for science: bacon)
I couldn’t read
Every letter became a new word
every symbol
in every book of occult came alive
I was able to read 10 or so words per minute
and able to remember nothing.
I sat in Starbucks
Ishtar
and read Hebrew and Greek to English concordances.
The 1560 and 1611 Bibles
were strangely readable. I kept rereading Genesis. “daye and nyght.”
I could still listen.
Write, never tell
I
mean
it so deeply
when
I ask
you
to
write
in
our
diary
about
looking
me dead
in the eye
and saying
the trash is full
and
I forget
to
take it out.
Galloping
My words are more
yours than mine,
they rest upon
my suffering
like boughs
of mistletoe.
are you more yours or mine?
I can gallop
to the steps
of the columns
of fate
of porcelain stone, white
as David,
as Lancelot,
as warriors gallop and try.
Carousels
I trust my
words
like an old seal
as tusks branch
from a mouth
revering itself
and as widows knit
carousels.
Solitude lengthens
Impenetrable
tassels, green
at home
shedding from
a window at dusk, fiery
coercing gazes at light and
tomorrow’s glance tonight
give chance a taste,
coercing
shadowy angels.
taste tomorrow’s
glance. I’m telling,
not asking. never asking,
if you’d want me to be lost
without your. . . no,
without your
fate’s no,
“yes.”
I could cry a little bit this morning
I could cry
because I’m so angry at you
because I’m still angry at you.
and I could cry
when I get excited
to kiss you.
and I could cry
that you wouldn’t.
Magpie
Voice
of
my
birdy,
heart
of
my
house.
Come-sit-stay-pray
A butterfly of laughter
has landed to rest
on your
sweetness,
your wholeness
flowers
with all crimson
and light—glowing,
these purple berries
are the dimples on your fullest
cheeks. your nectar
and our love
is everything,
our love
is everything.
Night light
Your
metal
of
daylight flashes like the firstly stars.
when you
tell
me that you love me. again
your gem
of moon, of night light
falls asleep
in my arms
and she
snores